Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Frank at Forty

(July 26, 2006)

is no different than frank at 35
or 10 gone is gone and we’ll never
share a dinner table which is just
as well probably best and I guess
it’s all a matter of missing someone
you never knew knowing something
you will always love will never leave

Sunday, July 23, 2006

It feels like only yesterday (when I remember how yesterday felt)

You met me after work with a quart
of cherries, an avocado & baguette, red
wine in a plastic orange juice bottle. Flowers,

mainly carnations, were woven through my bike
basket with a small paper banner that read: Happy
Birthday
. “I know,” you said. “But it’s worth celebrating

more than once.” We walked to the park, eating
our cherries and thanking everyone who wished us
a happy birthday along the way. I’m sure that evening

was cooler than I remember. You sliced the avocado
and served it on chunks of bread and I saved the pit. “I’ll
plant a tree!” I said, remembering all my sister’s attempts

pits supported by tooth picks in glasses of water
and left on window sills, waiting for that first
sprout & precious amounts of sunlight and hope. Of course,

I could be remembering that wrong, too. I worry
sometimes that I’ve mixed these days up; added sunshine,
a breeze on my cheeks, your mouth, my arms behind my head

my body stretched long. You sat beside me, never
moving your hand from its place on my thigh just beneath
my skirt. I made a wish, blowing on a blade of grass instead

of a candle, an awkward note that could have been
a honk, or a cry, but will always be music as we one by
one listed all our favourite days that came before this one.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

morning observation #74

I collect ex-lovers like
bottlecaps; the flair
of excess on display.